I know i have not written a blog entry since August 2005. Time has passed and a lot of things has happened in my life and career.  Today i will take some time off my busy day to write this journal because i feel like i need to share this and reach out.  I will write about all the past events only, feelings, thoughts in a monthly basis.

August:  I was in the Philippines, spent 6 weeks there with my families, friends, relatives, and love ones.  That was the best time of my life so far.  It was truly a much needed vacation for me.  I visited Boracay, Camiguin, Cebu, Manila, Davao, and Mindanao.  I almost toured the whole Philippines in my time spent there, all things i planned to do when i was there was done except for palawan and bohol, which i plan on visiting on my next time back.  I love philippines, i would go back there anytime if money and time permits. When i was there, i partied, i toured, sightseeing, swam, traveled, attended showbiz shows in manila, everything that you do during vacation.  I love to travel, some say that when i travel im a different person, but i dont think so.  My approach are different when im traveling because i value life and i want to maximize my youth.  I believe in the saying of live life everyday because life is short. While in the Philippines, i found out that i had passed the board exam, which is one of my biggest accomplishment and success by far.  At this time i didnt want to think ahead what my career is going to be like, because only one thing in my mind is: to have fun and treasure this moments.

September:  I came back from Phil. around the 2nd week of the mth.  Then reality hits, we all feel this way after a long vacation, but we have to face it.  I then started to think where am i going to start my nursing career?  I began to apply everywhere and within one week i got a job at a nursing home.  At this point i did not care where i start because i needed the experience first.  I worked hard and a lot, piling up overtime and sometimes 16 hrs. It was a new career and profession. I was overwhelmed, i was a new grad, i was scared, i was learning, growing, worried to make mistakes and all this was mind boggling.  All this was mentally exhausting.  The anxiety and transition phase to being a nurse can be draining and i felt it all.  At this point until the end of the year, i had lost touch with friends, hardly see my family, lost my social life, lost plenty of my hobbies and interest like: my fav tv shows, entertainment news, working out because i didnt have any time to watch tv or do anything else besides sleep and eat. I felt like i had no life.  Which was true, but working so much turned me into workaholic.  This is the reason why i took my 6 week vacation to the Phil. before i start working because i knew that once i start working i get so caught up and will turned into a workaholic.  I do have an addicting personality at times. During this phase, i have learned a lot about myself and my career, so i had no regrets.  I rarely regret things because i love to learn and i see life the same way.  You become a stronger and better person because you made mistakes and learned a lot from it.  If i do regret something it usually is 100% my fault and i move on.  I'm a positive person, i live in the current time and not what's in the past or future.  I dont like to think about the future because i might get dissapointed.  Sometimes i do see myself in the future but that's natural instinct. I set plenty of goals for myself and i have high expectations.  I dislike to think about the negative past because i know i can not turn back the time, so i dont dwell. But good times are always remembered and carried within me.